#ATM: March 2016

  • Went to work without any make-up for 3 weeks. I just felt too lazy going to work at 2PM and conducting my first class at 6:35PM.
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Before.

 

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After.

  • Quit working as an English teacher a week ago. I didn’t even regret it.. which makes me question myself if I made the right decision to pursue Education Studies. Hmm.
  • Still studying Korean. Less than a month away from my TOPIK test and I’m still not confident that I’ll be able to pass it.
  • Watched 3 Oscar-nominated movies: Spotlight, The Big Short, and Truth.
  • Blue participated in Anti-Rabies Awareness Month Kick-off Activities.
  • Charlie died.

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  • Went out drinking with a few Korean friends (can’t upload our photos, though). Ended up doing language exchange with one of them, but sadly, it didn’t work out.

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  • Spent time with P and V.
  • Random things that made me happy:
  • Spent most of my free time hanging out in coffee shops.
  • Started a blog post series called “Ten Word Stories”.
  • Been sleeping for more than 8 hours and eating less. Losing weight without even exercising.

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  • I feel like everything’s for naught – I have zero motivation to do anything. Whatever I do, it just doesn’t work out the way I want it to. I feel like a failure. More than that, I feel alone even in the presence of my family and friends. I can’t tell them my worries because I’m afraid they might judge me. I resorted to talking to strangers and old acquaintances because I didn’t feel any need to impress them. It felt good unloading emotional burden, but it wasn’t enough. I still feel empty. I don’t know what exactly I am looking for, but I don’t think I’m gonna find it any time soon.
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Grey

50-shades-grey

Take me away.

Lead me astray.

Between the heart and flesh,

A fucked-up mess.

Stripped of virtue,

Succumbing to you.

Do what you want.

I’m at your disposal.

Explore every inch

Deep beneath my skin.

Leave no trace of decency.

Leave no place for love and mercy.

 

To Read List: Children’s Books

Last update: 2 April 2016

  1. Where the Wild Things Are – Maurice Sendak (4 Jan 2016)
  2. The Snowy Day – Ezra Jack Keats (4 Jan 2016)
  3. Goodnight Moon – Margaret Wise Brown (5 Jan 2016)
  4. Blueberries for Sal – Robert McCloskey
  5. Little Bear (series) – Else Holmelund Minarek
  6. Owl Moon – Jane Yolen (2 April 2016)
  7. The Giving Tree – Shel Silverstein (2 April 2016)
  8. The True Story of the Three Little Pigs – Jon Scieszka (2 April 2016)
  9. Tuesday – David Wiesner (2 April 2016)
  10. Where the Sidewalk Ends – Shel Silverstein (2 April 2016)
  11. Harold and the Purple Crayon – Crockett Johnson (2 April 2016)
  12. Make Way for Ducklings – Robert McCloskey (2 April 2016)
  13. Olivia – Ian Falconer (2 April 2016)
  14. Madeline (series) – Ludwig Bemelmans
  15. Anno’s Journey – Mitsumasa Anno
  16. Frog and Toad (series) – Arnold Lobel
  17. Click, Clack, Moo – Doreen Cronin
  18. The Story of Ferdinand – Munro Leaf
  19. Don’t Let the Pigeon Drive the Bus – Mo Williams
  20. The Lorax – Dr. Seuss
  21. Corduroy – Don Freeman
  22. I Want My Hat Back – Jon Klassen
  23. Miss Rumphius – Barbara Cooney
  24. Brave Irene – William Steig
  25. Alexander and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day – Judith Viorst
  26. The Cat in the Hat – Dr. Seuss
  27. Press Here – Herve Tullet
  28. The Day the Crayons Quit – Drew Daywalt
  29. Whistle for Willie – Ezra Jack Keats
  30. The Garden of Abdul Gasazi – Chris Van Allsburg
  31. Yertle the Turtle – Dr. Seuss
  32. Millions of Cats – Wanda Gag
  33. Chicka Chicka Boom Boom – Bill Martin Jr. and John Archambault
  34. A Bear Called Paddington – Michael Bond
  35. Winnie the Pooh – A.A. Milne
  36. The Tale of Peter Rabbit – Beatrix Potter
  37. Mike Mulligan and His Steam Shovel – Virginia Lee Burton
  38. Go Dog, Go – P.D. Eastman
  39. Mama Don’t Allow – Thacher Hurd
  40. Eloise – Kay Thompson
  41. Bread and Jam for Frances – Russell Hoban
  42. Amelia Bedelia – Peggy Parish
  43. Love You Forever – Robert Munsch
  44. Animalia – Graeme Base
  45. In the Night Kitchen – Maurice Sendak
  46. Diary of a Wombat – Jackie French
  47. Tikki Tikki Tembo – Arlene Mosel
  48. Extra Yarn – Mac Barnett
  49. Good Dog, Carl – Alexandra Day
  50. My Father’s Dragon – Ruth Stiles Gannett
  51. Hello, Rock – Roger Bradfield
  52. The Gruffalo – Julia Donaldson
  53. Sylvester and the Magic Pebble – William Steig
  54. The Important Book – Margaret Wise Brown
  55. Jazz Walter – Dean Myers
  56. The Stranger – Chris Van Allsburg
  57. The Very Hungry Caterpillar – Eric Carle
  58. Elephant and Piggie (series) – Mo Willems
  59. Jenny and the Cat Club – Esther Averill
  60. The Runaway Bunny – Margaret Wise Brown
  61. Pippi Longstocking – Astrid Lindgren
  62. Journey – Aaron Becker
  63. Green Eggs and Ham – Dr. Seuss
  64. The Red Balloon – Albert Lamorisse
  65. Little Owl’s Night – Divya Srinivasan
  66. Paddle-to-the-Sea – Holling Clancy Holling
  67. Katy and the Big Snow – Virginia Lee Burton
  68. A Sick Day for Amos McGee – Philip C. Stead
  69. Slow Loris – Alexis Deacon
  70. The Color Kittens – Margaret Wise Brown
  71. The Fantastic Flying Books of Mr. Morris Lessmore – William Joyce
  72. Oh, The Places You’ll Go! – Dr. Seuss
  73. The Little Engine That Could – Watty Piper
  74. Cars and Trucks and Things That Go – Richard Scarry
  75. The New Kid on the Block – Jack Prelutsky
  76. How Rocket Learned to Read – Tad Hills
  77. The Stinky Cheese Man and Other Fairly Stupid Tales – Jon Scieszka
  78. The Story of Babar – Jean de Brunhoff
  79. The Three Questions – Jon J. Muth
  80. Grandfather’s Journey – Allen Say
  81. We Are the Ship – Kadir Nelson
  82. We’re Going on a Bear Hunt – Helen Oxenbury and Michael Rosen
  83. Arthur’s Nose (series) – Marc Brown
  84. If You Give a Mouse a Cookie – Laura Joffe Numeroff
  85. Sayonara, Mrs. Kackleman – Maira Kalman
  86. Miss Nelson is Missing – Harry Allard
  87. Lilly’s Purple Plastic Purse – Kevin Henkes
  88. Alligator Pie – Dennis Lee
  89. Everyone Poops – Taro Gomi
  90. Rain Makes Applesauce – Julian Scheer
  91. Lon Po Po – Ed Young
  92. The Berenstain Bears (series) – Stan & Jan Berenstain
  93. Mr. Popper’s Penguins – Richard and Florence Atwater
  94. Library Lion – Michelle Knudsen
  95. The Real Mother Goose – Blanche Fisher Wright
  96. Harry the Dirty Dog – Gene Zion
  97. Out of My Mind Sharon M. Draper
  98. The Poky Little Puppy – Janette Sebring Lowrey
  99. Pete the Cat (series) – Eric Litwin
  100. Stellaluna – Janell Cannon

Link: http://time.com/100-best-childrens-books/

Don’t date a writer. You’ve been warned.

You could have just told me.
I would understand.

Even if you couldn’t speak the language well,
I would try to figure it out.

You didn’t have to call me a liar
When I was just busy being the best I could.

I accepted your reasons
For keeping us under wraps.

If you were so bothered,
You could have asked me why
I always had to go home
When I had a place to call my own.

Don’t send you messages?
Bye? Take care?
Breaking up over SNS?
Are you fucking serious?!

Yes, I am upset.
And I’m writing about you.

I’ll make you immortal
Because you had the gut
To treat me like that.
시발.

Random questions to the rescue [Part 1]

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These days, I am really bored at work.

My shift starts at 2PM, but I don’t have any classes before 6:35PM..

and it’s driving me crazy!!

So today, I decided to try answering random questions just to pass the time.

Here goes Questions 1 ~10:


What are your nicknames? What do you prefer to be called?

  • Sar, Sarah, Pretty baby (and many others). I prefer Sara (yes, without “h”).

What books on your shelf are begging to be read?

  • A lot.. no kidding.

How often do you doodle? What do your doodles look like?

  • When I’m extremely bored. I usually draw stick men and emojis.

What do you do if you can’t sleep at night? Do you count sheep? Toss and Turn? Try to get up and do something productive?

  • I listen to music or play a movie/TV drama. I need the assurance that I’m not alone.

How many days could you last in solitary confinement? How would you do it?

  • A day or two. Just lock myself in a room.

Do you save old greeting cards and letters? Throw them away?

  • Save. I’m a very sentimental person.

Who is the biggest pack rat you know?

  • Myself.

When making an entrance in to a party, do you make your presence known? Do you slip in and look for someone you know? Do you sneak in quietly and find a safe spot to roost?

  • Sneak in quietly like the introvert that I am.

What is your strongest sense? If you had to give one up, which would it be?

  • Sight. Maybe, touch? I don’t know. I need sight and hearing, that’s for sure.

How many times a day do you look at yourself in the mirror?

  • As many as the number of mirrors I pass by a day.

Will answer more later~

 

 

Dear 30-year-old me

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I hope you are happy with the life you have.

I bet you have already sorted out the mess I am at 25.

I’m sorry for every bad decision I made –

I was too dumb and too stubborn to care.

Do you still laugh yourself silly over trivial things?

Do you still cry over sappy TV dramas and movies?

I hope the last five years had not been too hard for you.

I hope you ended up doing what you’ve always wanted to do.

I hope you still see the good in everyone.

I hope you still try to let go of the things that make you sad and mad.

I hope you still believe in happy endings –

And if life has not given you one yet,

I hope you never stop making new beginnings.