And I don’t have any idea what the hell I’m doing.
Should I settle down like some of my friends?
Should I start travelling around the world?
Should I focus on climbing the corporate ladder?
I want to study – this is the only thing I’m sure of.
I want to finish my degree and get my diploma.
I want to take short courses on business and management.
I want to learn more about finance and accounting.
I don’t know.
I don’t even know if I’m gonna need them soon, or in the future.
At 23, I was already part of the management team.
But I resigned, because I didn’t want to evaluate classes and train teachers anymore.
I wanted to go back to teaching – that’s what got me in my current company.
And so I taught for half a year.
But I started asking, “Is this all I can do?”
I felt dumb, and disrespected by some students with teenage angst.
But I had to be patient..
After all, that’s what teachers do, right?
I forced myself to sit through classes I’d rather skip.
I grew angry at myself for not being able to understand.
I had to remind myself over and over:
“They’re just a bunch of kids. They’re tired from over-studying.”
But I just couldn’t accept it anymore.
There must be something else I could do.
And so I quit..
And sent an application to a university.
I’m gonna pursue Education Studies, but I want to quit teaching.
At least, until I graduate.
Ironic, isn’t it?